giggled to myself..

I think that the way life goes it rather funny. You can either sit back and analyse things, like I usually do but for some reason today I decided to sit back, look at the bigger picture and have a quiet giggle to myself. I have a rather good life and yes there are things I could do to make it better but that would mean going through some pain first (meaning ditch my ex for good instead of letting him use me as a security blanket) but I like having him around, he isn't just my ex boyfriend, he was also my best friend for the past six years, so why should I let that go just because we aren't together anymore..? I mean this thing him and I have going at the moment, it won't last but shouldn't I just enjoy it while I can?

I think its time to let loose a little bit, try and I mean TRY not to over analyse situations. If he wants to see me or talk to me, let it be.. don't read into it because all it does is mess with my head, not his, mine!!!

Anyway my point is, life is fairly good, I have a pretty supportive family and although they may disagree with a lot of my choices they are still there. I have a few good friends and although I don't have many, the ones I do have, I know they are there for me if I need them. I have a pretty good job, I am furthering my education. Things could be worse..

I laughed today because I saw a picture of my ex's new girlfriend and yes I had seen a picture before but I was angry then, now I'm not (sure deep down I am but not on the surface) I laughed because I know I'm nothing special but my god did my ex lower his standards with this one. For someone who can be very vein he isn't with his new girlfriend. At least it all sort of makes sense now when he sees me he can't keep his hands off me.

Just makes you feel a little bit better... you know to laugh at someone else's mistakes for a change!?