Confession.

I think I may be, possibly falling for you. And it scares the absolute shit out of me. I question myself, my own feelings because how can I trust them, after everything that happened. What happens if I actually do fall crazy in love with you. What happens if you fall head over heals for me..? will this actually work? too many thoughts, too many questions. Maybe I need to just let it all play out.

and what if....

I may be a little insecure and get jealous at times, I may worry about being showing you who I really am in case you don't like me, but it will never stop me from showing you who I am. I often wonder what you think of me when I speak before I think or when I manage to injure myself by simply standing still. I worry you might think I'm too stubborn, or too much of a thinker. I question myself if I'm asking you too many questions, because I don't want to scare you away but I just like to really know the answer, I like to have a full understanding of the situation. It scares me a little bit or maybe a lot that I can be so open and honest with you. It absolutely terrifies me that I am letting my walls down around you. And I find myself asking, what if I fall for you...?

hmmm

I just don't think I will ever be able to understand the opposite sex, you continue to confuse me!

life.

Life.

It is so unpredictable, you never know when things could take a turn for the better or worse. If you sit around waiting, you will never experience it but you go at it to extremely, you may crash and burn. Life is something to be enjoyed, you know the saying, stop and smell the roses, well we should. Enjoy and embrace each moment that life gives us.

It will never be easy and there will always be heartache and pain, but would life really be worth living if it were perfect. As much as we all work so hard to gain the 'perfect' life, we will never find it. Someone else will always have something more. But maybe we need to be grateful for what we do have and appreciate the smaller things. Some of us aren't lucky enough to live a full,enriched life and some of us lose out way too early.

But things happen for a reason, whatever it may be...

you fool!

You are the pathetic, useless, heartless whatever else you called me. I did nothing except move on with my life, like you wanted. You broke up with me but now that I have moved on and gotten on with life, you think you have the right to send me nasty messages, well if it helps you sleep at night, telling me how much I don't mean to you anymore and how good life is without me. But guess what mate, it honestly can't be that good when you still have to message me to tell me!!

Notice how I never reply, because I just don't fucking care anymore!